A dream is only a dream…

I had a nightmare last night and it woke me at 7 am strike. Unbelievable… sometimes I wonder if I think too much. Then again… yes, I do think a lot….

It looks like the purchase of the violin will have to wait… I wonder if I’m being selfish towards my father… If so, I can start collecting money for it after I’ve paid for the stuff I’ve ordered from a collegemate.

I’ve been quite of a sloth lately. I should be doing something about my lingual studies… Well, at least I’ve been practicing my keyboard more often than ever.

I’m rather worried about this unknown audition that is probably going to be held next month. They are having it to choose the bands for the convention. I was hoping that my band will be chosen but the members seem to be pretty much in a slump and it is unknown whether we will be obtaining a new drummer. These two factors lower the chances of success. I’m quite worried. I’m trying to grab this oppurtunity to somehow get a contract from a company and introduce the band.

The band Argent Lune consists of 5 members (maybe…). They are the vocalist(moi…), guitarist, keyboardist, bassist and drummer(???). However, due to circumstances, we may have to practice seperately… Now that I think about it, me and the bassist seem to have some musical differences. This may also be the same to other members who prefer a more punky edge to the music rather than my gothic, melodic preferences. It’s like they are Gazette and I’m Malice Mizer…

:sigh: I hope things will go well, though…

Gardenia… taisetsu na hana…

I’ve listened to Malice Mizer’s Gardenia for a long time now…

That was the first song from Malice Mizer I’ve listened to and I fell in love with it at the first beat…

There are many other songs that I like from Malice Mizer too… like Brise, Gekka no Yasoukyoku, Apres Midi, Garnet Kindan no Sono e and so on… my dream of watching them live is… just a dream… they’ve broken up already and gone their seperate ways… I feel like crying…

I’m trying to relive Malice Mizer in the music that I compose though the style may be different… I’m trying to keep the feeling there… I’m doing this so that I won’t feel so sad for them inside…

Faded writings

Faceless people in my dream,

All the emptiness written

in their abysmal silence,

 

Where are they going to?

What am I suppose to do?

All the dreamless are resting in a deep sleep,

 

While my sleep is shallow,

These faceless people

walk aimlessly like tomorrow is today,

 

Watakushi no koe kikoeru ka?*

No matter what I say,

my words remain unheard to the dreamless,

like the pages in a very old book,

dusty and spoiled through time,

My words are like those faded writings…

 

The dreamless, faceless people,

The silence flowing through my ears,

like a silent symphony,

 

What are they walking to?

Where am I supposed to go?

All the faceless are empty inside their sleep,

 

This aimless dream is being prolonged,

And my sleep is still shallow,

The light of dawn is already shining…

 

Saa, nemuri ni yosete!**

My eyes are only half-closed,

and my words are still scarce to the dreamless,

like a century old letter,

undelivered and lost forever,

Those faded writings are like my words…

 

Let me fall into a deep slumber,

Like those faceless, dreamless people.

This is yet another poem from me. I’ve added two romaji lines to make it more interesting. The meanings are as follows: *means Can you hear my voice?  **means Now, lay me to sleep!

I’m very sad. Why am I always too late? I seem to like bands that have broken up a few years ago. Like Lareine and Malice Mizer… :sigh: